I was inspired by a blog post that I read today and immediately wrote this poem.
I hope you enjoy it.
Yes, I seem as if my wish came true
but underneath I'm just like you
I found I wasn't satisfied
With who I was down deep inside
And always wished for something whole
To fill this aching in my soul.
I wished to have a new perspective
All along, a new direction
Wished for courage, wished for poise
Wished for words without the noise.
I hoped and wished and hoped some more
for clarity and luck galore
For time and creativity
and to rid of my anxiety
But after all was said and done
I realized I had received not one
Yet, other things that took their place
like mercy, forgiveness, and grace.
And did I use these things? No, I
instead decided to deny
that they were part of me at all
and wished of course for me to draw
In every other type of want
that I could show and I could flaunt
And so one day I still remember
it was in early November
I took a journey to finally find
the kind of "me" I had in mind
and as I walked a lonely road
And carried all my heavy load
I knew this time I could not stay
For I had wished my life away.