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The ones in front of me.

Memories are moments that we have experienced, loved, and left behind.
But plans... those are things we hope for.



We all make plans.

I've heard it said somewhere that when we try to make our own plans, God laughs. And maybe that is true. A lot of times, life doesn't fall into place exactly the way you would like. We found that out last fall when Adam was diagnosed with cancer. It wasn't "in our plans". But how perfect that God used something like that to make us stronger. To make us appreciate the little things more. To bring us closer to Him.

Sure, we have had to kind of rearrange our time-line for things. And the funny thing is, everything feels so perfect right now. Like everything is exactly how it is supposed to be. I know that a lot of people like to exclaim how great their life is, but I feel like I can sincerely say today that life is so good right now. God has been so good to us. I look around and yes, maybe people have a lot more than we do. Maybe they have more money, more opportunities, more days off of work, or more adventures. But one thing they don't have ... is more Love. And for that, we are truly blessed.

We've been making plans.
I bet you've noticed that a lot of my blog posts lately have been about babies. My best friend recently had a baby, my sister-in-law just had our first nephew, and so many of my other friends are having babies and expecting more. Yes, we've also been talking about a family. It is definitely a dream of ours.

I'm excited to tell you ...
we have decided to start trying to start our family next spring.

Ha. I teared up just typing that.

I wish I could describe the joy that I feel inside when I think about being a mother. I hold my nephew or my best friend's son and the overwhelming love that I feel for them does not even compare to the way I know I will someday feel for our children. I'm going to love it.

I can't wait to teach them. To teach them about the beauty around them and how God created it all. And how he loves us and shows his love for us in so many ways. I can't wait to sing to them as they fall asleep, and pray with them, and hold them. I can't wait to tell them stories about their grandparents and great grandparents, about their aunts and uncles, and about how their dad and I fell in love. I can't wait to see what kind of things they love. To see if they are into music and art like their mama or if they love sports and history like their dad. I can't wait to teach them to be forgiving, compassionate, and faithful. It's almost a little silly to say this, I suppose, but I can't even describe to you how much I already love our unborn children.

I can't wait.

Who really knows when we will start our family? Only God. We can plan all we want to, but it really isn't in our hands. It is amazing to look back on my life and see where things have led me. Led me to people that led me to people, that led me here. It's all figured out. It is probably all written down somewhere and I am playing it out. Just like I have played out my past.

And even though I have a long trail of beautiful, incredible memories behind me....

I am filled with an indescribable joy in my heart thinking about those still yet to come.

The ones in front of me.

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4 comments :

  1. What an exciting decision! I remember when we made that same decision with all its promise and unknown. It's the most challenging path we've ever traveled, but easily the most rewarding. Blessings to you all on your journey.

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  2. Oh, sister!!! You always touch my heart with your blogs. You have a great heart and I know that you will be a great mother. I am CAN'T wait either for you guys to start your family. I know that you and Adam will have so many great qualities to pass on to your children and I can't wait to see them grow up and our kids to grow up together. It is funny how we try to plan things and it isn't what God has in mind. Trying to take control of getting pregnant and the baby we lost. God had a better plan for us. And we may not always understand why things happen. It does bring you back to giving it all to God.You just have to trust in God and know that He knows better. He gave us Brady and we are so blessed and we cherish him even more. He gave us you guys too. Ya'll are such a blessing to us and we love ya'll so very much.

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  3. Yay for babies! They will bring you joy I can't even begin to describe. Good luck.

    Now following you back!

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  4. Congrats!

    I hear ya - hubby and I just decided a few months ago that we were going to start TTC too - we're on our 2nd cycle and I'm crossing my fingers! It's sooo exciting!

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